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i feel so odd sometimes, in my own skin and the like. i feel that i should have dedicated myself more thoroughly to something by now, as though i should be someplace more concrete in my life. sometimes, it's as though i'm spinning completely out of control, like the rest of the universe, all chaotic and completely subject to the magnetic draw of the moon. other times though, i feel completely secure, feet firmly planted on the ground and rooted like trees.......this is not one of those times